Doing the Work

 I write this post as it is 11:31 a.m. in Grand Junction, CO.  I am exhausted but also suffer from mania from my Bipolar disorder.  I am not sure what category my disorder is in.  All I know is that my disorder is not fun to live with these days.  I feel extremely emotionally, physically, and spiritually exhausted.  I also am currently in my second year of divorce that hopefully will end soon.  Among all the torns, I still try to find the roses during these times. 

I decided I am only going to write a short post at this time because my mind won't allow me to write too much at a time without feeling overwhelmed.  Mania is a funny thing.  I feel as though I cannot sit still and must be very productive, but I do not have the patience to sit and write for long periods of time.  

I will do a brief summary of my life from past two years....

Two years ago I left my husband because he spiritually persecuted me.

I haven't seen my sons since last February.

I have been houseless since I left my husband over two years ago (Staying in shelters, motels, hotels, Airbnbs, hostels..etc.).

Last May (2024)  I was diagnosed with Biopolar disorder.

This is my third go around with big pharm-as I never wanted to believe I had this disorder and also never wanted to support Big Pharma.

I am taking Abilify and Lithium.  They gave me a shot in my arm for Abilify to last one month.  it has been a month and they wanted to check my blood levels to see whether I should get shot again.  

There is much I would like to share, thought I feel exhausted and I am waiting on someone.  I have a meeting at two p.m. to discuss housing options.  This is exciting for me.  

I will leave things as they are now and add more later-as there is much to talk about.